Just about got all my Christmas shopping done. I figured I’d be a bit merrier this year, so I went out and bought really nice gifts. It honestly felt really good. I usually always just panic and buy little things like chocolates and candy, wine, etc. This year though, I went to Jared and got my mom a really nice purple sparkling butterfly charm for her Pandora bracelet. She told me she wanted my sister and I to pick a charm out for her, and to get something that would remind her of us. The butterfly just seemed so perfectly fitting.

I’ve been pretty busy lately between both jobs and my maintenance routine. It feels like it’s been forever since I was just able to chill for a moment and do absolutely nothing, and the idea of it is very relieving. I got the next 5 days off and goddamn, I sure fucking need it. I also got a bonus today too, and honestly it was quite a bit more than I would have expected being a newer employee, but hey I like surprises. I suppose I’ll have to buy myself something special this year, and ya know, I really know for certain that I absolutely have earned it. 🙂

I want to feel spectacular and present myself in a new light. I have been saving some hot rainbow fishnets to go with a future outfit, and just in the nick of time, Dollskill delivers. I got the very last one in stock too. Go me!

I undoubtedly have a thing for sheer mesh. It’s just freaking awesome to wear and is aesthetically pleasing. I’ve really been looking for rainbow wear that’s not over the top, and with all the black, it’s exactly what I’ve been looking for. Then of course, I have to browse through the shoes. I have a whole list of footwear that I want, and I plan to fill a closet someday full of them, but for now I just need something to give me my fix. Something new, something different, but totally hot as fuck.

These are Daredevil Chain Heels by Current Mood. They are totally rocking my taste in style, but also changing things up a bit by going with white. I love black a lot, but I feel like these shoes will take on the world by collaborating properly with some black apocalyptic leggings, or perhaps even some utterly shredded and destroyed leggings underlined with rainbow fishnets. The possibilities are endlessly left up to the imagination.

I could totally spend a small fortune on shoes alone, and I’ve thought this through. I definitely should not ever buy cheap shoes. In fact, I should only commit to them if they are in the $100 range or higher, otherwise I feel like they’re probably not worth buying. I recently threw away anything I didn’t feel was overly special. Fucking closet space is a pretty goddamn precious thing, and essentially I will probably be needing an actual shoe closet in the near future.

Aside that from all that, I’ve been investing in a lot of clothing. I recently got my first kangaroo style hoodie, and OMFG, it’s like the best thing ever! I’ve also been buying better leggings and a wide assortment of stockings and tights. I feel like those are important building blocks to any outfit, and honestly I could survive living on hoodies and tight pants for the rest of my life. As for my past attire, well it’s about to get kicked to the curb soon. I am down to owning one men’s hoodie and five tee-shirts. I’ve pretty much replaced everything with women’s now, and it feels really great. Though of course, I had to buy a new dresser with more space and get a double tiered hanging system for my closet and some shoe cubicles, but it’s all worth it.

I will be entering 2018 with a whole new wardrobe and a fresh outlook on life. I’m also 70% complete with my hair removal process and I feel like I’m progressing in the areas of my life that need attention. $5000 in services, $5000 in a new room and clothing and another $10,000 in my truck. That’s 20k the new me sucked up this year. After that though, it gets really fucking expensive. Hip augmentation, $8000. B-cup Breast augmentation, $6500. They have loads of other services, but I’m not looking to actually be a woman so I won’t be needing those. In reality, my aim is to simply pass as a female when I want to, and then be Brian when I need to. After all, my hopes and dreams in life require a great amount of flexibility in order to achieve them.

Anyway, I haven’t done much with this blog lately, but I’m hoping to. I recently upgraded to a private cloud server in order to fulfill some future Internet ventures, but also bought a bad ass iMac with dual screens. I plan on investing my time, which is limited, in many places. I have lots to say. I have lots to do. It’s just really a matter of finding the right words… because explaining the things I intend to put into perspective soon, just isn’t going to be easy. So for now, I’ll just preclude what’s necessary in order to get back on my feet again. A lot has happened, and to be honest, it’s pretty fucking complicated.